我以為…

我以為…
學生吸毒會在暗裡進行、盡量不為人知（因為知道那是不見得光的事），新聞節目告訴我，只要在xanga和hk yahoo blog打有關字眼搜尋，便會找到很多學生的吸毒逸事－就像我去了一家食物好吃的餐廳、跟某某朋友吃飯談天不亦樂乎，在blog裡紀錄下來－一樣平常。因為吸毒於他們而言，正正跟吃飯和跟朋友談天，一樣平常。而某些地區的中學，更是「十間中學有十間都有學生吸毒的問題」；受訪的學生，更是身邊個個朋友都因為吸毒進進出出男女童院，「某某呀，最近又入左去囉」－說時，就跟身邊的朋友去了台北旅行三天一樣平常。

我以為…
藝人吸毒酗酒是跟走紅與否有關，半紅不黑星途多舛者才會是吸毒酗酒的高危人士。近日，日本有草剪剛因為酗酒行為不檢、韓國有朱智勳因為吸毒被捕，兩人都是當紅藝人，大有前途的。我開始想像，普通人跟朋友交往是你請我吃飯，我請你喝咖啡；有閒錢又懂門路的藝人，可能是你請我索K，我請你吸冰…

想起爾冬陞的《門徒》：
「到底是毒品可怕？還是寂寞可怕？」

有一種毒品叫寂寞。它的解毒劑，是甚麼？

我想起…
我但願…
也，但願我…

Make me a channel of your peace.
Where there is hatred let me bring your
love.
Where there is injury, your pardon, Lord
And where there's doubt, true faith in
you.

Chorus:
Oh, Master grant that I may never seek
So much to be consoled as to console
To be understood as to understand
To be loved as to love with all my soul.

Make me a channel of your peace
Where there's despair in life, let me bring
hope
Where there is darkness, only light
And where there's sadness, ever joy.

Chorus:

Make me a channel of your peace
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned
In giving to all men that we receive
And in dying that we're born to eternal
life.